| behind those smile, lies this timid girl. |
[Apr. 13th, 2008|08:21 pm] |
i am too drained from going to school and work at the same time, sometimes i feel like just giving up. do nothing, just do nothing. as much as i hate going to school, i finally am adapting well to my course and the things i learn. but one thing to it is that i really dont know where i'd go after this. like i dont have a proper aim in life. i think i have to start thinking about it. whut am i going to be in 10 years time?
problems just keeps coming in and i seriously am sick and tired of handling each and every one of it. i feel like im breaking and falling. how i wish i could just live a carefree life and care about nothing except being happy? doing things i love to do and just basically live life like how i want it to be.
dear god,
give me the strength to ignore, once again. i was doing perfectly fine, i swear.
but i suddenly lost that grip. my steady feet failed me.
and i feel lost and incomplete. just bring me back to where i was,
its just that one thing i ask for.
strength.
give me the strength to be strong. and face all of it, dont chicken out.
):
i havent lost faith in you.
be with me always,
thankyou.
oh paranoia. you're a habit i need to break.
& just so everybody knows, i havent seen my boyfriend since last thursday and i miss him, alot. we are too caught up with school and work and i swear spending time with each other just once a week, is not enough.
i havent had the time to spend time with the people i want to meet badly, i am losing out.
i miss my bestfriend i cant wait for her to come back at the end of the year where we can have the time of our lives just having so much fun.
i cant wait. i really cant.
sister's chalet coming up next, and i can hardly wait.
for now, its back t school work school work school work.
i wish i could stop this never ending cycle.
at once.
edited;
HAPPY 18TH MY DEAR GOOD FRIEND.
i am really really really sorry i totally forgot your birthday yesterday.
was too caught up with too many things, like work work work, i even forgotten one of my closest friends birthday!
i hope you had fun on your birthday, and i hope me wishing you late wont have an impact on you.
at least i wont feel that bad. (haha.)
ughh. i feel like ive failed as a friend.
i am reaally sorrry kay.
so anyway, happy birthday natalie long xin mei. i love you always.
really missed those times we spent together throughout the last 2 years in IJ and it was definitely great having you as my good friend. through goood times and bad.
those memories, i'd never forget.
(but yes, i forgot your birthday.
goddamnnit.)
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